Anhad's Pov 

I was parking the car infront of the main gate and waiting for miss noor-e-jahan miss Heeri

and she came fin-fucking-ally

but she ignored my car and start to move ahead.

I whistled

"madam , hello , dikh raha ye kya h "

I said pointing at my car.

"hann dibba h, dikh gaya ab, khush?"

she replied with a tight smile telling me that she is angry.

"thik h na yrr sorry ab chd na"

I said,

"nahi chdna, koi dikkat h?"

she replied rolling her eyes.

tashan? beta tashan to mera bhi kam nhi h paida hua tha na 6 mahine baat tk nhi ki thi maine kisise, par beta Anhad abhi isko mana lee kyuki baad me ye apna shakuni mama vala non-existing dimag chala shadyantra rachegi , isliye waqt aaya h gadhe ko baap bana le!!

sorry pappa

"nahi mam.. koi dikkat nahi h .. aap bas mere saath chliye m drop krdeta hu aapko kyuki abhi aap taxi lene gye to bohot time lagega and I know ki aapki gaadi servicing ke liye gyi h"

I replied sweetly

note the sarcasm

"thik h tum itna bol rahe ho to.."

saying this she moved and sat at the passanger seat.

finally

I've never let any other girl on my passanger seat except family, but Heeri is exception. I dont know why but she's always been my passanger princess.

I moved to driving seat 

"Heeri , nahi sudhregi na tu, seatbelt laga"

I made her remember about the concept of seatbelt.

"han han laga rahi hu"

she replied.

End of Anhad's Pov

Heeri's Pov

akad to dekho iski!

I tried to fasten the seatbelt . but I was finding it difficult to do because of my new nails.

han vahi naki nakhoon jinke liye maine 4 ghnte or 7000 barbaad kare

and here  Anhad was pressing his lips to control his laugh.

I was struggling with it when suddenly I felt him moving towards me. he moved to the seatbelt and tied it in a single click. my stomach felt foreign with the sound of click and my eyes moved to his hand.

butterfly butterfly

I moved my face in his direction to find him close, very close, I was feeling his hot breath on my forehead

yes he's 6'2

after a moment of die for eyelock we shifted in our seats.

this is not the first time it was happening. Anhad was something . I dont know what but yes.

and in no time with mr. Anhad's great bullshit  driving skills we made it to the college at time but does it looks like I'm going to thank him? NO

I moved out of the car and was searching for the admit card in my bag just then I felt a hand pulling me making me land on a hard but soft surface I realised its a person's chest.

I moved my face to look at the person only to find an angry but worried Anhad. he was below me and we fall on the road.

it must've hurt him so much.

I get up of him and also helped him to get him . As he stood up he harshly pulled my elbow and caged me tightly.

"tera dimag sahi h, kya kar rhi thi... are you blind that you couldn't see a big fucking truck coming in your way.. now why are you standing like this.. bol kuch"

As Anhad goes on and on my eyes started to tear up and I pushed out of his cage. looking at him I wiped my tears and moved inside I could hear him call me but I didn't stop.

"oyee Heeri... finally you came...I was waiting for you from so looong.. wait you're crying? what happened?"

as I moved to the class I was cornered by Bharat with his hell of questions.

bharat virk : the only friend of mine who's a chatterbox. but if you hurt him then you can try all you can but he'll never NEVER will speak a word to you.

"nothing happened idiot..you know my eyes start to water if I rub it too much so when I was coming from the car I forgot to close to window so something got into my eyes and I just rubbed it harshly.. that's why"

I explained lied because I know if I'll tell the truth I'll have another person scolding on my back.

I mean I know I did wrong but am I going to say sorry?NO I don't say sorry NEVER

"ohhhhh"

"chal ab you have  to go to store room at the 2nd corridor after the exam"

bharat said

"and may I ask why"

I said sarcastically I  might add

"vo isliye because after exam you are becoming juliet for that romeo juliet play na so just abhi Mrs. sharma told me to tell you that your dress is in store so you have to get it."

He explained

I nodded in Affirmation, and then we both moved towards the exam hall.

After exam , I straight went to the store of 2nd corridor I went in it and let the door open.

I was searching for the dress when suddenly the door gets closed. it became all dark .

Dark and me 

me and dark I start to panic .

I thought to count till 10.

yes that's what my therapist told me . yes

common Heeri you can do this right? yes you can

No no you are not a burden you can deal with it yes common

1....2....3......3..........3............4........4......4...........

common heeri say just count inhale exhale 

I.N.H.A.L.E  E.X.H.A.LE

I.N.H.A.L.E E.X.H.A.LE

INHALEEXHALE

I felt bile rising in my throat, my eyes start to tear up , the tears were all over my face along with sweat, my face turned pale, my heart start to beat in my throat, I then plan to knock.

I raise my trembling hand to knock onto the door .

I start patting thumping the door with my all left strenght.

I tried with my all might but my trembling hand couldn't manage and just faint thumping voices came with me patting on the door, which went unheard even by my ears .

I started to give up . I lost all my strength.

My throat clogged up, my vision started getting blurr two black dots appear in front of my eyes and I was out before I knew.

Anhad's Pov

I know Heer will never say sorry. I finished my meeting as soon as possible and came here to pick her up , I don't know why but after the morning incident I was restless for her .

god let her be safe, please just don't let these negative thoughts in my mind win please

 now its been 30 mins I am here waiting  outside her college's gate , and even all the students were out , where was she?

negative thoughts in my mind doubled up  and I just sprinted inside the campus just then a panicking bharat bumped to me.

"Anhad hee..heeri"

he said panicking

I cupped his face and shooked him a little for him to gain his senses.

"what happened to heeri bharat common tell me?"

I asked him 

"a peon called me and told that heer is found unconscious inside the store room she was locked .. he opened the door .. I was just rushing the-"

I didn't even let him complete and ran to the store room

My heart churned when I got a glimpse of her sweaty face with tear strained cheeks. unconscious. 

I moved to her and picked her up to reach my car . on my way I reassured bharat that everything is fine and he should go home now.

I put heeri in the passanger seat and tied the seatbelt 

I started the car rushing in the driving seat heading to city hospital. her regular doctor. the therapist. Mrs. sita ramchandran.

yes only she can help for now 

I reached there and picked her up directly heading to her cabin.

 no one stopped me 

why would they? didn't you bought this hospital when you got to know heer's therapist is a doctor here, to avoid any hindrance if heer needs her

okay yes I did happy now?

I laid her on the bed in her cabin.

"what happened to her Anhad"

Mrs. sita asked checking heeri.

" I.. I don't know seets .. I just got to know she was locked in the storeroon and it was all dark and when the doors opened this was her condition.. seets she is fine right? please tell me I'll just die.. how can I not be there when she was in problem.. yes I know we both creates problem for each other but those are harmless.. In these kind of problems we stood by each other everytime.. we had each other's back.. seets.. h.ow. I .. seets do something.. make her awake .. I want to fight her .. why was she so careless .. please seets"

I don't care if I looked like a 2 year old Anhad crying to buy him barbie. Seets have seen worse  the thing about which I was only concerned right now  is heeri .

seets is her nickname which 10 year old Anhad gave her when he came with a small scared heeri with him.

"relax anny she's fine just lost her consciousness because of excessive panicky I gave her a light dosage.. she'll open her eyes soon."

Seets told and I relaxed a bit 

"by the way you didn't tell me"

seets said

"what"

I asked confusedly

"that you turned into loverboy "

seets said making me shocked

"what Lo..loverboy no what ..a.re.. you.. say..ying.. seets"

I said stammeringly 

like a deer caught in light 

"oh my damsel in distress.. don't act oversmart now .. you know right I am a therapist .. or vaise bhi mere bacche ki kanji aankho se sb smjh aata h"

seets said 

deep red covered my neck and ear indicating I'm blushing

"so I am right, tell me about it Anhad"

seets said warmly

"I also just realised it seets I love heeri she .. when she was in that condition I felt life leaving my body yes I know I love her"

I confessed not even hiding a bit 

Seets is an elderly women in her late thirties . she was always our favorite my and heeri's. we both share our parts of heart to her and she listen peacefully. she always gives the advice which is best for us and not even once her advice went wrong. she's been there for us whenever we were confused. In my eyes she is so so respected I just love her.

"hmm hmm I see but the matter her is complicated"

she said

"why complicated"

I asked impatiently

"wait a little loverboy.. will tell you everything slowly."

she teased 

I was about to retort back when we heard  a cough coming from heeri and I rushed to her with a filled glass of water. she ignored looking at me.. just took the glass and drank it in one go.

"you fine na heeri?"

I asked her but she just coldly nodded

maybe she is not in the mood to talk

"you want to talk about it heer?"

seets asked her but heer nodded in no

"not now seets"

heeri stand up and starts to take steps but stumbled as I hold her she looked into my eyes.

her brown eyes showed longingness, confusion, feelings.

just when I start to dive more into her eyes she jerked my hand.

I just know its something. heeri is not the person to be about about morning's arguement till now . so nope that's not the case then what is it

I moved to the parking to see her leaning onto the car looking nothing at particular I opened the car using the key and she jolted out of her bubble at sat at the passenger seat . I too moved at my driving seat and start to drive.

during the drive it was all silent

our silence use to be peaceful calm but this was annoying

"heeri what's bothering you? bata bhi de naa remember crime partners!"

I urged her to let me know why she's silent.

she looked at me with a cold face and said

"take me to our usual"

and I didn't need to be told twice I take us to our spot where we always came together to breathe when the head feel heavy.

we came out of the car and sat on the sand on the beach , waves touching our legs softly.

"Anhad .. I heard what you said to seets"

Heeri said dropping the bombshell.

"Anhad , we've been crime partners or whole life... been at each other's throat from when we came at the tender age of 12 .. anhad you loving me is not a shocker.. shocker is that we are getting married and knowing that one second we kill each other with glares and next second you say you love me .. I just think we shouldn't do this, this you, me ,us. if it happen it'll only bring havoc in both of our lives.. Anhad I don't think we should do this .. I don't want to marry you please.. I have a dream ahead and our relationship can never be that understanding .. and we both know it.. so please just.. we can't marry"

Heer said looking ahead at the waves and I was stilled 

I think my heart is crushed.. and the echo is so loud that its bleeding my ears.. I felt tears pricking in my eyes.. but just before they drop I held them back .

" if that's what is your choice Heer.. I won't force you, now come I'll drop you home"

I said and walked to the car knowing if I even stay for 1 min I'll cry litres.

suddenly my heart felt so heavy, bleeding with pain.

I looked at the star cladded sky

waheguru ji, main nahin janda ki age ki likhia hai aapne meri kismat vich, par aap bus heeri da khyal rakhana use kuch galat nahin hone dena.

I prayed to waheguru ji

and got seated in driving seat for heer

Heer's pov

he went 

I know him

he couldn't control his tears 

he just looks tough but is a tender coconut from inside

I know what I am doing is for our both happiness but still its hurting so damn much knowing that I love him but I can't tell him.

what if he'll make joke of my feelings

what if he'll be digusted by my fear with darkness

what if 2 years in marriage and he come up with divorce because I am chubby and I can't satisfy him in bed

I know these are baseless but that are my insecurity..there are more but these three tops the list.

I have been a chubby girl by birth and was bullied alot in the childhood.. my phobia with darkness is associated with this only.. I have may issues .. I am dealing with myself and on the other side the brighter side anhad is there who is every girl's dream , he can get any girl.

I just don't want to be called burden or be bullied in front of the society for being chubby and ugly.

Anhad is just too bright for me. he is like that white cloth which can wipe every stain on me but  in turn itself get stained. and I don't want that I don't want anhad to lose his personality . he shouldn't be with me . he deserves better.

after being done with my self degradation session very common I wiped my tears and moved to the car and then we were at home in no time.

I got out of the car but anhad didn't  I looked back and asked him.

"you are not coming?"

"no heer I need to go to office an urgent work came up "

anhad replied and I nodded moving into the house I know he lied ..  but he needs time it is better he get over me soon.. well it will not take much time though as I am not some beauty mess I am as ugly as potato.