Heer's Pov

Its been 6  months.. 6 months since he left .. and 3 months since his call for calling off our engagement..

I don't know which reason he gave but it happened.. the engagement was called off

and since then its a bit hazy in our house.. Maithili maa do not laugh as usual.. the effect of the absence of her son can be seen on her face ..  Akshay papa is busting the gut.. working recklessly for two reasons

1. Anhad Malhotra did set the bar high .. so to match that.

2. To not remember his stupidito son.

Its now a mess in everyone's life... my mom was left shattered when Akshay papa and Maithili maa told her about Anhad's phone call and denial.. I don't know what talks happened between them but since then its like black and white in our lives..

now.. about my feelings for Anhad then I know you'll hate me for saying this but I realised it that I love him.. in these 6 months.. I don't know why how his presence matters so much to me

thik hai na der aaye durust aaye

but you didnt came up "durust"-shut up

as my subconscious mind mocked me I shut it off.

I gave him numerous of calls, emails,messages, sms but the messages and sms didn't reach and calls went unreachable or unanswered.

it continued and still is continuing I message him Daily just to get the same response

Today I was getting ready to go to Saanjh.

the malhotra's and arora's corporation

they are two seher and saanjh.

Today I have to go to saanjh to review a wedding lehnga of the client.  

During these 6 months no one asked me to see rishtas for wedding ..

kya ghutti pilayi hai iss Anhad ne sbko waheguru.. 

 or ye ki hai? waheguru , jadon mainu nahin pata si ki main us noon pyar kardi han, tan us noon propose krwa ditta hor ab  hun jadon mainu noon ahisas ho giya hai, tan usane mainu reject kar  ditta hai ... not fair Waheguru not fair.

with this thought I move to dining table .. all was there except one.. and I couldn't help but feel a pang to know that the reason is me ..I feel like crying.. I already feel a bad day ahead.

oh tan me suiya suiya si suiya suiya si ab to lagi hai chubhne- here comes this bitch .shut up

I was about to sit near Avyaansh bhai when I heard the voice of the door opening and a squeal coming out of Maithili maa's mouth in a flash of light.

I too turned to the door to see Anhad standing .. A wide smile automatically came onto my mouth but it got vanished too seeing a girl coming from his side..she looks indian 

but wasn't he in london?

what the hell am I thinking.. shut up Heeri.. I got up and move to the door where all the family gathered and circle Anhad .. He can't see me with the crowd but I can and also hear.

"Anhad ae soni si kudi kon h?"

Maithili mumma asked

mummaaaaa not fair 

I whined internally at the praise this unknown girl is getting..

I am hating her already 

"Mom ye krutika hai.. krutika rajsinghania.. hamare bohot ache client or meri kaafi achi dost.."

Anhad clarified

Hayeee listening to his deep voice after soo many dayssssss.

with the little space kiaan and avyaansh bhai was standing I saw him opening his cufflinks.

Sir!! please respectfully fuck me- this bitch go go away shoo!

I put my brain on flight mode as it got dysfunction after seeing him after so long.

"Accha hua Anhad tum aagye tumhare bina to ye ghr .. ghr hi nhi lagta tha"

mere sage papa ki biwi ne ye kaha 

and he hugged her smiling widely

"mumma mujhe aap logo ko kuch batana hai"

Anhad said  making our parents nod 

"Mai krutika se shadi karna chahta hu.. I know I reasoned that I don't want to get married this early but papa in these six months with her in the project I got that She's the one for me.. she's it"

Anhad said 

our parents's face blank.

and me I was shattered.. shattered to know that here I was trying making things right .. going all the way mad to just talk to him and he was marrying .

I was about to leave the hall when I heard his laugh.

"See your all's faces ..ohh god..sorry krutika had to end the prank early.. warna meri family me kisi na kisi ko heart attack aajata"

He said and anger bolied into me I made my way from between kiaan and avyaansh bhai and grab his collar to pull him closer.

yeah and let me tell you I looked like a child making his way from that mickey balloon game.

"kya han.. nahi kya baat hai tumko"

I asked 

"kya baat hai mujhko"

He said a little hazed from the way we were standing 

yeah I totally forgot there was family 

I left his collar pushing a little at his chest.

"na emails dekhte ho na messages , na sms , na calls, maana mujhse glti hui but I realised too Anhad .. and iss prank se na kisi na kisi ka to pata nhi par mujhe heart attack zaroor aajata "

I said .. my voice breaking at the end with the heaviness of emotions.

and I moved to the parking lot started the car and now I am driving towards Bharat's home .. because going to saanjh won't help as I know how much Workaholic he is that he'll definitely come to saanjh.

I park my car outside the door .. I shouted 

"BHARATTTTTTTT"

and I was halfway shouting when he opened the door making me shock

"hein?.. tu kya antaryami ban gaya hai kya? kaise pata tujhe mai aayi hu?"

I asked

"vo kya hai na.. subah se meri seedhi aankh fadak rahi thi"

he said 

"par ladko ki seedhi aankh fadakna shubh hota hai na"

I reasoned confused.

"han par meri seedhi aankh tb hi fadakti hai jb tu koi kaand krke mere ghr padhare .. examples du?

vo college me reesha ko baal pakadke marne ke baad.. kyuki usne bola tha use Anhad par crush hai  or Anhad ke liye aapka pyar jaag gaya tha 

or-"

he was interuppted by me

"han ho gaya ab chl side hat andar aane"

I said and pushed him aside to enter.

"bharat baby tera ghar itna faila hua kyu hai"

I asked him

"Heeri baby kal yaha par maine daru pii or preeti ke jaane ke dukh me kabeer singh banke surgery krdi..

pagal hai tu? kabhi mera ghr saaf suthra dekha hai tune?"

He said.. basically taunted me

I smacked a cushion on his face from the sofa I sat on

"tu kyu itna rude banke ghoom raha hai chill kar na"

I said

"chill kar .. Heeri betaa agar aapko na pata ho na to bata du ki meko Kiaan bhai ka call aagaya tha ki tu pareshan hai.. I thought to call you but usse pehle aap tapak gye .. mujhe mere neend ke coma me se to bahar aane de"

he said 

"tu vaise bhi apna dimag aeroplane mode me leke ghoomta hai thik hai na"

I cat fighted him

"atleast I have brain unlike you"

He said roasting me

I smacked another cushion at his face.

"jldi jaake muh dhokar aa.. or han maine breakkie nhi kiya hai to mai pasta banane jaa raha hu tu khayegi"

I said .. and changed the gender at the end.

He laughed a little at my silliness

"jii abhi jayegi phir aake khayegi"

He said and we both laughed like crazy 

chennai express babies we were

and then overcoming his laugh .. he went for washing his pig face and I moved to the kitchen.

aaj Bharat Virk ke kitchen ka makeover krte hai evil laugh

jokes jokes !! I make very good white sauce pasta 

but Anny makes it more better.. I used to fight him for a bowl.

I immediately turned a little emotional and my mood ruined .. I didn't made anything and just stood leaning on the counter.

"kya huaa?"

bharat said coming into the kitchen

"he is back"

I said my voice low and creaky from the overwhelming emotions I am feeling.

"han I know and?"

bharat said making me sigh

"you know what happed at the moring .. every nook and corner don't you?"

I said dejectedly.

"yes I do.. I know .. but jo mujhe jann na hai vo ye hai ki tu kya feel kar rahi ? tu kya chahti hai? tera ye reaction kyu aaya? or ye sb tu mujhe batayegi but pasta pe charcha par.. got it?"

I smiled a little at his sentence

and I made pasta for both of us.

"hbybbybybyedhduhehhhhb"

bharat said while eating pasta.

I stared with disgusted face

 "bro eat first you and I both know you eat like a pig"

I spat 

and he glared at me and then eat quietly and quickly

we completed and then sat sprawled  on the sofa like mercury at room temperature.

"so?"

 he asked 

"so?"

I asked back.

"ki karna hai ab?"
he asked 

"Ki karna hai ab?"

I repeated confused

"don't repeat idiot"

he hissed 

"shut up you pig"
I spat

and then we both kept sitting sprawled like that when suddenly I felt his finger poking my forearm

"sun na"

he asked

"bhok"

I replied sassily

"bol ab kya karegi? Anhad chaiye ya nahi? Heeri surely bata kyuki Anhad is the best man any girl can get and tujhme itni powers hai that you can bring him to his knees.. just don't walk upon and he kiss the ground you walk on..Heeri I've noticed it like from a long time he dosen't let anyone else hurt you just him "

He said and my eyes filled with tears on the corners of it

"then why do he do it?"

I asked with heavy like crying voice

"because its his love language"

bharat said chuckling a little and wiping my tears said

"chl abhi..uss anny penny chuhe nu dassde ne ki jab Heeri pyaar kiti hai taan poori duniya usdi mohabbat di misaal dindi hai... okay?"

and I nodded fastly

"bass ek baar bharat bss ek baar iss anny penny ki narazgi door kardu phir isko aisa sabak sikhana hai na maine waheguru ki sau yaad rakhega ye"

I said making 36 types of faces and he laughed..

"chl ab .. I'll drop you to saanjh and I'll go to starlight"

He said

"why starlight?"

I asked as its one of the hotel he owned.

lala hai bhai lala

"the manager fucked up"

He replied and I made and 'o' understanding face.

"chl hop on"

he said as he pulled the car outside the house

I sat on the passanger seat as I'm the Passanger princess.

and we reached saanjh in no time I bid him bye by giving hima tight wala hug for all his support throughout this time when I didn't want to eat, sleep, listen, study, make a career, live.. he was the one who stood by me.. my bestest friend

"heeri what the hell is this perfume? tulips?"

he hissed and I nodded showing him my white pearls.

"hannn mujhe tulipsss bohottttt pasand haiiiiii"

I said unnecessarily streching the words.. and he flips me a bird and again wave at me before driving off.

come on Heeri lag jaa kaam par varna ye client tera sar kha jayega.

nhi baby ye nahi chaiye

baby lets go

baby baby baby

I mentally imitated the client and then moved inside the building with my aura as a boss women who don't give a shit why you fucked up but if you did then you are gonna get punished.

I as quickly as I can moved to my cabin because I was 1 hour late so before the client was coming in 2 hours now reaching in 1 hour..

fluffing bharat fluffing clients fluffing Anhad , this fluffing world.. fluff all

I said mentally cursing but not cursing .. I quickly put my stuff and moved to work room where I work my magic on the clothes .. I folded the sleeve of my black coat and opened the buttons of it or it'll break

I know it had happened.

now I was working in my black sleeveless crop top with my black coat above it...my black jeans

I start to look for finalising ends.

and I didn't knew when the time passed.

It was 12 .. it became 12 at night .. and I was dead tired both mentally and physically 

I just wanted to sleep 

par mujhe bhook bhii lagi hai

while thinking this I drive my car and reached the house in 15 minutes

jii 30 minute ki drive ko 15 minute me khtm kardiya .. bss isii baat ka ghamand hai

I don't ahve energy in me but if I sleep without eating then I'll have a very furious maithili maa , akshay papa and very 10x furious mumma and papa breathing down my neck and then they'll make me eat food of 1 month in a day so better to not laze and eat atleast something.

I took a shower of 30 minutes to soothe all the tensed muscles.. changed in my black tee and shorts and then move to the kitchen switched on the light.

just then I saw door opening.. I move to the hall area to check

it was him 

Anhad

my eyes immediately softened looking at him dropping his body on the sofa with tiredness.. I quickly bring a glass of water and walk to the sofa to give it to him.

seeing a hand stretched with a glass of water he looked up at me.. and those blue orbs softened ..he holds the glass still maintaining eye lock and stood up towering me with his height

khamba hai khamba-shut up moment hai bhai moment.

my breath quickened a little as he tugged my hair coming on my cheek and slowly painfully slowly  tugs it behind my ear 

and he slightly moves his face down close to my face with only a hair breadth distance between mine and link pinkish red lips, I gulped swiped my tongue on my lower lip to wet it and then bit it a little with the proximity and then his hand came in the contact with my lower lip which was hidden under my teeth .. he slowly dangerously tugged at it to pull it out 

"khana lagau"

I asked breathless"

"hn?"

he said hazily

"kh..khana lagau"

I said more breathless this time looking at him controlling himself from kissing me.

"tum dining table par baithogi?"

he said I guess out of his mind.

"hnn?"

I asked hazily

"khane me kya hai"

he said 

basically we both were whispering and it was audible because of little to no distance between us.

"kh..khichdi bana lu?"

I asked and he nodded a little , licked his lips and moved back to go towards his room.. to freshen up I guess

I giggled at the butterflies in my tummy..

and then move to the kitchen to make food.

and by the time I was placing it on the dining table Anhad came. and we start to eat silently.

"Anhad do you-"

I was interuppted by him 

"ab tu anny bhi nahi bolegi"

He asked making me look at him staring at my soul softly.. we both were sitting side to side.

"its not like that Anhad"

still irked with all the things happened today and in these 6 months

"tera  bharat ke saath kuch chl raha hai kya?"

he asked softly

"tumhara krutika ke saath kuch chl raha hai kya?"

I asked back as same as he did

"nahi she's like shrishti to me "

anhad replied making me smile

"bharat kiaan bhai jaisa hai mere liye"

he smiled widely 

by this time we finished eating 

I don't know but I was suddenly feeling so like crying.

"A..An..had"

I said with my eyes pooling tears.

"wh..what happened heeri? wh..why are you crying?"

he said panicking 

"why Anhad? why did you call..call of the engagement?"

I said sobbing

"Heeri.. its better for both of us"

he said with his face turning stoic

"so? you don't love me now? you love krutika?"

I said

"don't.. just don't bring her in between I said she's like shristi to me"

He replied with the same stern face

"so now you don't get to talk to me .. it was about us anhad.. it was not only you .. it was supposed to be our decision .. I texted you called you messaged you.. but you didn't see.. you didn't receive you didnt reciprocate because if you would've then you would've seen I texted you thousands of times just to know the reason for this .. I called you the whole day but you didn't receive .. why what changed? you do not love me now?"

I sobbed all my feelings 

"no I don't"

he said not looking at me 

"mere taraf dekh ke bolo Anhad..don't you yearn? to listen to me saying your name like before?, to hug me, tease me like before, don't your heart flutters? no nothing? zilch is it?"

I said crying badly by now

"listen Heer.. I don't want this discussion please"

He said blankly still not looking at me .

"exactly what point do you want between us Anhad?"

I asked sighing as I had enough today

"the same we have now.. no point.. you and me we both stay in this house under same roof but we are strangers.."

He said .. he just said with no emotions

"okay then that's what you get.. its always been me.. my wish, my things, my way.. now lets take it your way but just know it Anhad do not break me so much that even I can't bring myself up"

I said cryingly wiping my tears and left to  my room

I quickly closed the door as soon as I reached the room and slided my back against it breaking down completely 

waheguru he.. he doesn't loves me..  no he don't he... he want us to be strangers.. meri glti ki saza ham dono ki zindagi ko mil rahi hai .. mai .. mai toot gyi waheguru, 6 mahine .. jb vo yahan nhi tha na tab sbse chupke  uske room me jakar  uske room se uski feel.. vaha so jati thi kyuki neend nahi aati thi, ye soch sochkar ki usne khana khaya ya nhi, soya hoga ya nhi, I.. I didn't knew what to do .. mera to sb khtm ho gaya tha.. mere paas to vo bacha hi nhi jisse me ldke bhi duniya jahaan ki baate krti thi jo baatein kisiko  nhi pata..  rabba agar mera pyar saccha hai te meri kismat vich oh hai, taan mainu us naal mila de , hor pariksha na le.

I didn't know when while crying everything became black.. and before I knew I passed put with my head hurting like hell.