Anhad's Pov

she left crying

those tears .. those tears in her brown eyes were doing something to me.. as if pricking every cell of my heart.. sucking blood out of my body.. taking out my life bit by bit .

but it is better

better than her crying her whole life with me

she'll cry now but then she will not have someone as useless as me to cry over.

and to be true she was right too.. we've been each other's throat all our lives .. she can't love me ..that's my thing that I love her and I don't think I'll ever stop because that's what I've been doing since childhood... but sometimes letting someone you love go is the best thing if it is meant to be yours then it'll come around.

I came to my room.. layed on my bed.. still couldn't sleep ..

I move to my study table

and pick out my diary opening it I live every memory of me and Heer .. our childhood fights .. to adulthood spats.. everything..

this is the 10th diary which is going to be full just two pages left and you say that you don't love her- shut up shut up NO

I finally found two blank pages at the end and start to pen down all my feelings all the things I've been going through...

raat ke 2 baj gaye hai so nahi paa raha hu baar baar man me sirf ye sawaal aaraha h ki vo kaisi hogi.. kya abhi bhi ro rahi hogi

soyi hogi ya nahi 

waheguru ... aap to sb jante hai na .. please.. please koi aisa ishara dedo jisse mai smjh jau ki mujhe kya karna hai, heeri or mere bhavishya me kya hai ..

mai thak gaya hu ab .. vo kehti hai usne calls kare messages kare par usee kaise batau ki mera phone kho gaya tha or us vajah se mai uske itne calls and messages nahi dekh paya .. 

waheguru please bass ek ishara ..

mujhe pata hai Heeri ka .. agar vo sach me mujhse pyar karti hai to nahi manegi .. try karegi.. hamesha karti hai jaise.. just like the fighter she is ..

Heeri iss baar mainu akela na chdii~

tuhada hon vala pati~

Anhad (anny)

all night tossing ono the bed ..

the time came when a low light entered my room

it was early morning . time to gym

I moved to the gym.

It took me 2 hours to completely take off my mind from yesterday's events and hit the gym.

by the time I came I saw the ladies in the kitchen.

I quickly move to my room and took a relaxing shower so that the lack of sleep of last night can be suppressed.

I need a black coffee .Period.

I got ready to go to office and move down for my coffee.

"amma meri coffee laa de aaj jldi jana hai oh US vale clients ke baare me bataya tha na vo aarahe hai "

I said to my maa while sittng at my chair will everyone except her present there.

where is she.. is she okay?.. did I overdo yesterday?.. please just let her be okay god.. waheguru raksha kari

I saw krushna didi coming from the kitchen with ice and water in a bowl

"krushna beta ye kaha le jaa rahi hai"

My maa asked

"maithili mumma Heer ki tabiyat bohot kharab hogyi achanak se.. vo gate bhi nahi khol rahi thi.. hame to pata hi nhi chlta agar abhi use nashte ke liye nahi bulane jati to .. kal raat se bukhar me h"

She said and my heart goes Thump. she's sick . I need to see her. she.. she is sick.

I got up 

"ab tu kidhar jaa raha hai"

Agastya papa said

"Heeri ke paas I need to go"

I said 

"nahi Anhad... krushna hai she'll go"

he reasoned

"nahi .. I am going"

I reached there with the bowl and close the gate from inside.

As I entered I saw a very week Heer trying to get up from the bed ... I go close to her to help

"no need I can-"

She said in a very weak voice and I interuppted her

"nahi manegi na tu?"

I said 

"kya?"

she asked

"tabiyat kyu kharab ki?"

I said

"hogyi"

she said

"tu mujh jaise kutte kamine ke liye tension le rahi thi raat ko?"

I said looking for the brown eyes but she was just looking down.

"nahi.. tension nahi just"

she said 

"just kya? ro rahi thi ?"

I said and she kept mum

"heer tu na pitne vale kaam mt kara kar"

I threatened

she looked up with tears filled eyes

"ab tum bhi Heer bologe ?"

"it is-"

I was cut off by her

"anny.. please ek baar bol do ki tum abhi bhi mujhse pyar karte ho bss naraz ho mai sb kuch seh lungi.. sb kuch.. tumhari narazgi, gussa sab  bss"

I cut her off

"itna sb kuch bol diya par love you nahi bolegi haina?"
I said sighing

"mai kyu bolu tum bolo.. itna fayeda nhi uthane dungi tumhe tumhare bade hone ka"

she said sobbing 

hayee cutuuuuuuu-you are freaking 28

"mai naraz hu"

I reasoned

"to? love you nahi bologe?"

she said wiping her tears and raising her eyebrow..

if I tell her she raised her one eyebrow unknowingly she'll burst with excitement because she thinks she can't do it and everyone can so she's a bit jealous

"yrr tu dhang se propose to kar na .. ye kya hota hai.. dhang se propose karegi tb bolunga na "

I said

" tum bss mere thik hone tk ruk jao chuhe.. batati hu mai tumhe... apne paas tk nahi aane dungi dekh lena"

she said making my eyes widen

"dekhiye Heeri devi ji.. ek mard ki life me bohot se phases aate hai or phir ek phase aisa aata hai jab use jeevan me sirf ek biwi chaiye hoti hai.. or mai uss phase me enter hogaya hu.. chat mangni pat vyah hoyegi ab... mai risk hi nahi leta .. kl ko phir compatible nhi hai bolegi to?"

she swatted my chest at the word "compatible"

and we both laughed

"anny .. I missed you.. so much"

she said sighing in comfort.

"I missed you too Heeri.. every time I took breath every day every minute"

I said 

"to phir call kyu nhi uthayi"

she asked

"kho gaya tha na"

I replied guiltily

"par tu bhi dumb hi hai na jb mumma papa ko call ki thi maine tb nhi le skti thi number"

I said

"ahahaha jaise call to chai pr charcha ke liye kii thi.. engagement todne ke liye kiya tha kaha se mangti"

she replied 

I caressed her cheeks

"tu itni sundar kbse hogyi"

I said 

"tum itne ache kbse lgne lage"

she said 

I chuckled and said

"shayad shuruvat se"

she laughed and said 

"shayad shuruvat se"

I hugged her close to my heart.. so tight that she'll never go away from me .

she hugged me back with the same tightness

I've always felt something empty in me.. in london.. because I forgot my heart here.. and finally sitting here in each other's arms I can finally say our Hearts in conflicts became Hearts in Harmony 

waheguru ae ishara kafii hai 

"I love you Anhad so much that I am afraid that if I don't get you it'll break me and I don't want that please anhad never leave me and love me like this always and forever.. please"

She said and my heart skipped a beat 

I kissed her forehead

"kabhi nahi chdunga kabhi bhi nahi .. mera pyar hai tu heeri .. vo pyar jiski ijazat vo rabb vo waheguru mujhe deta or ab  iss rishte ki dor bhi usi ke haath hai"

I said hugging her more tightly.

"tumne love you nahi bola.. abhi bhi naraz ho kya?"

she said in a weak voice.

"yes.. what the fuck was that compatible shit"

I said and then fliped her a bird and continue

"or tu ab mere peeche bhi nahi aayegi?itni badi hogyi tu?"

I said looking at her rubbing her head where I slapped my hand.

"acha sorry na... ab to bol do na please"

she said

"aise nahi jab meri marzi hogi tb bolungi abhi khush hoja kyuki ham shadi kar rhe hai"

I said declared  that I am going to marry her as soon as possible.

 as I said mai uss age phase me aa chuka hu jb mujhe sirf ek biwi chaiye 

"nahi"

she said 

"kyu nahi ab"

I shrieked

"kyuki mister jo raita aapne failaya hai na .. engagement tod kar.. vo aapko hi sametna hai.. kyuki for your information let me tell you ki hamare parents me cold war chl rahi hai or parents se mera matlab tha mummy kyuki papa's are kind of okay with it .. ab bataiye abhi bhi jldi krni hai shadi"

she reasoned

"dekh shadi to mujhe krni hai.. or jldi hi krni hai .. ab kii kare pr?"

I said in distress thinking what to do 

just then she wrapped her hands around my neck and pulled me close.

"don't worry to be husband.. ye jo beech ka time hai na hamare paas .. isme ham sb karenge .. tum mujhe office se secretly pick karoge .. ham ghoomenge , long drives, cafes, or chup chupke romance ? vo bhi to karna hai meri bucket list par sbse top par hai to abhi to mai shadi nahi kr rahi"

she said and I pulled her more close from her waist

"to? ab ? acting kare vahi purane Heeri or Anhad ki?"

I said chuckling

"jii bilkul"

she replied and suddenly shouted

"Anny penny chuhe kahike meri tabiyat kharab hai or tum ho ki mujhe pareshan karne aagye .. dafa ho jao yaha se"

I chuckled and back hugged her as she stood up while shouting.

"to? tumne hi mujhe gussa dilaya or khud pinak ke Perri Perri Heeri ban gyi"

I also shouted

"achaaaa mai perri perri dafa ho tum chalo"

she said and pushed me outside , then she laughed and closed the door.

"HEEEEERRRRRRR"

I shouted so loudly that it could wake the dead

"ki hua anny puttar hayee kyu apna gala phad ke chilla raha hai jaise teri baby bua aagyi ho bata.. ki hua?

my mom came and asked

"amma se Heeri ne mainu pareshan kr ditta hai .. tu meri shadi kara de.. meri biwi dekhegi phir ise"

I said 

"hayee puttar sach? thik hai mai aaj se hi ladki dhoondna chalu krti hu"

She said making me panic .

"nahi amma-"

"han puttar mai jaa rahi hu sheena ke paas achi achi ladkiya suggest karegi vo mujhe"

"am..amma.. oh amma"

I shouted but she was gone .

just then a came pulled me inside.. and there she was , the little devil, brat 

HEER

I was looking at her and suddenly got a smack of pillow on my face.  

"shadi kara de amma meri biwi hi dekhegi ise"

she repeated my words and threw another pillow at me

"heeri yarr.. lag rahi h.. nahi kar"

I said resisting the pillow shots.

"lagne ke liye hi maar rahi hu chuhe"
she said 

"shadi kara do meri .. you know what tumhe na iss raita phailane vale concept ka brand ambassador ghoshit kar dena chaiye.. kyuki kaam to tumhare vaise hi hai.. ek raita sameta nahi gaya or mr. Anhad malhotra ne doosri phaila diya.. "
She said with her nonstopping attack of pillow

why the hell she have these much pillows

"oyee ..ruk jaa na nahi kar"

I said trying to resist the non stop pillow shots

Keyword here being used is  Trying 

"huh.. bade chaudh me bol diya vaha par.. meri shadi kara de amma"
she said imitating me and finally stopping the pillow attacks and I move closer to her to hug her

"chodho mujhe.. kisi kaam ke nhi ho tum phir raita phaila diya.. tum na.. niklo.. chlo niklo mere kamre se"

she said and threw me out of her room

Anhad beta sirf pyar hua hai use tujhse ..ldki abhi bhi vahi atom bomb hai 

 I was moving to my room when I got bumped into Kiaan

"kya hai"

I said irritated already.

"kya kya hai.. london se andhe hoke aaye ho bhai?"

kiaan said smirking lightly

"ek chamat me aadha gad jayega zameen me.. height badha pehle phir aana baat krne .. huh"

I said roasted  my dear friend Kiaan

"aap na badi zyadati karte ho Anny bhai"

Kiaan said making a face

"zyadati karte ho .. tu or vo teri chalak lomdi behen dono ne dimag ka dahi tadka with aloo paratha kar diya hai"

I said

the correction is : I didn't make sense

"dimag ka aloo paratha?"

he asked confused

"han mera favorite hai na"
I said showing him my white pearls.

he looked at me in disbelief

"or ek min aapne meri behen ko lomdi bola"

He said

"han bola kya krlega 5 ft"

I mocked him

"oyee 5ft 8 inch.. ab sb aapke jaise khambe nahi hote na 6'2 ke"
He said

"teri vo chant chudail behen se pooch.. meri height pe hi fida hui thi vo"
I said setting my hair

yeah without mirror.. boy's understand

and he laughed hollers like carzy like a maniac

"aap..apke height pr.. han sahi baat hai shakal to jaisa ki meri behen kehti hai "pahadi bakre" jaisi hai "

he said in between his laughs

"tu jata hai ki pitt ke jayega?"

I asked and he was gone in mini seconds after kissing my cheeks forcefully

yuck! him and his bromance

I again start to proceed towards my room but my mom bumped to me all clad in her new suit 

yeah to make sheena aunty jealous.

I know because I brought her this and this was the first thing she said

"ki hoya hai amma"

I said irritated

"hayee kaisa muh saad ditta hai.. khush ho ja puttar tere liye kudi dekhne jaa rahi hu .. phir chat mangni pat vyah.. balle balle te shava shava.. bhangda, shadi , rasme, or.. pados valo ko jalana"

she said the last line looking at maithili mumma coming from the other side of corridor.

"amma isme unki kya glti thi?"

I reasoned

chant mt ban zyada sb pata hai sasural valo ke saamne image banana hai tujhe

I just hate my subconscious mind when it becomes a little bitch which it always is

"oh puttar tune ni na kaha tha ki heeri di ikcha ki khilaf nahi jana chahta tu phir.. in logo ko rishta karna hi nahi chaiye tha"
my mom said 

"ahahaha. jaisa aapka anny to doodh ka dhula hai .. uski bhi ikcha nhi thi shadi ki.. agar hm ne galat kiya hai to aapne bhi kiya hai"

rishika maa in her defensive mood came forward in the battle

waheguru bass in dono aurto ki ladai baal kheechne tak na pohoche bss

it hurts like a bitch okay.. I know because the amount of hair Heeri pulled on mine can make a wholesome tail of horse

"hamara ladka hamari marzi"

mumma said 

"han to hamari bacchi hamari marzi"
rishika maa said 

mat karo yrr !! uss lomdi ko pata chala ki maine ek or raita phaila diya to kha jayegi mujhe.. you both can respectfully fight but just with low voices.

"aise kaise bhai aapki ladki.. hamare ladke ke saath rishta ho raha tha na uska hamare ladke ka bhi to sochna tha aapko"

mumma countered

kyu mumma kyuuuu .. nahi jeet rahe aap ye argument .. kyu lad rahe ho .. or sasu mumma aap bhi 

"to phir aapko bhi meri bacchi ka sochna tha"

rishika maa gives back'

"mumma"

just then a weak voice travelled our ears

there was standing my brat trying to be innocent 

keyword: trying

"mumma meri sir dukh raha hai bohot"

she said 

"oh mera baccha chl mai-"

 mumma was cut off by rishika mumma

"heeri puttar mere saath chal .. mast champi krti hu teri aaja .. or han apni mumma se bol de mujhe tujhe le jane de teen paas na kare"

"mumma meko maithili mumma ke saath jane do or zyada teen paanch na karo"

heeri said exactly that

han itni muhphat hai ye~ bsss isii adaa pe to dil le gyi mera

"mai.. mai teen paanch-"

rishika maa was cut off by mumma taking heeri 

"chl heeri puttar"

mumma said and proceed to her room

I looked at rsihika maa and animated sorry

"mumma sorry"

I said making a face

"its okay beta galti tumhari nahi hai"

rishika mumma said cupping my cheek.

I then again proceed to my room. 

but was  bumped by Aaransh

"kya hai yrr.. ye ghar hai? ise zilla kyu nhi ghoshit kr diya jata hai.. idhar chlta hu koi takra jata hai udhar chlta hu koi takra jaata hai.. ghar hai ki zilla.. nahi kitne log rehte hai ab yaha?.. sachi savhi bolna mere jaane ke baad kon naya member add hua hai yaha?.. konsa naya baccha paida kar liya hai mummy papa ne ? bol? bata na chup kyu hai bol?"

I rolled my words on Aaransh and at the end of my retort he laughs a little

"bhai why are you being such a princess hn?"

He said laughing

"mai.. mai princess.. pitna chahta hai tu ya jo kaam ke liye aaya hai vo karne jayega"
I threatened and he was gone

elder brother card

ghr ka bada beta

I quickly proceed to my room and lies on the bed

aaj ke din sirf soyunga ... kaam ab kl se

and I slept only to woken by a disastrous news.