Aathmika's Pov

he slept just after he hugged me but I couldn't .

not after what I just heard.

He love me.

He freaking love me from 2 to 3 years even after knowing that I love someone else.

and the boy I loved considered me as a girl who falls in love every now and then, played with my feeling for 2 years, disrespected my love for him.

and said his love for me vanished because we didn't had  any physical contact and here was this man who loves me from 3 years even when he didn't even talked to me.

I was feeling guilty for loving another man. for not even glancing at a man who love me and whose love is as pure as ganga .

I do not know what to do .

I was thinking . thinking and thinking just then I remember my dadi sa  she used to say that

"if you ever fall in love and are confused between 2 persons then always go with the person who loves you.. not with the one whom you love.."

I looked at him

I hugged him more tightly 

this was soothing 

so soothing

there was a intoxication in his presence that's what I felt all this time.

I promise Ahil I'll give this marriage a chance I promise I'll try my best.

I pressed my lips on his forehead pasting a softest kiss there I snuggled in his chest .

I didn't know when sleep engulfed me.

I woke up early.. I usually wake up at this time to worship mahadev  I get up and asked the attendees to prepare bath for me  till they were doing so I decided to take a tour of my chamber

there were ten partitions of our chamber.. the first part was round and spacious with a huge chandelier on the ceiling  that was the room for in general family meetings huge couches were placed there. there were doors up to 9  to the other 9 partition of the chamber.

the second part was for  chilling and relaxing.

third part was where my Mahadev was it was for prayers.

the fourth part was a library . 

the fifth part was our bedroom it was the last one with calm vibes.

the other two partitions were bathing room and dressing room it was attached with the bedroom for convenience.

then eight partition can be considered as storage room.

then there was ninth chamber . it was locked . it was looking like a weapon room  .. 

then there was 10th chamber locked.

just then an attendee came to tell me that bath was ready .

I took my bath and move towards the partition to worship  mahadev  I did the pooja and abhishek .. now I was sitting there with my eyes closed and hand joined to pray .. just then I felt another presence beside me . It was him. My husband.

he was sitting just like me praying to mahadev .

looks like he just took a bath.

he was looking beautiful and to be honest he was looking hot. his hairs were still dripping water . he wore a white kurta and wrapped a brown shwal  around him.

I was looking at him absorbing his every detail.

but my eyes were craving to look at his green emerald eyes.

I was busy staring at him I came out of my thoughts when he said he said 

"रानी सा आपके ही है हम जितना मन हो उतना देख सकती हैं आप हमे पर महादेव के सामने तो शर्म करे"

( rani sa I am yours only.. you can see as much as you want, but you should be ashamed  in front of Mahadev atleast.)

I sensed a hint of tease in his voice as he said with closed eyes and joined hands.

so desperate to see his eyes! huh!

I also closed my eyes and adjoined my hand and said

"हम कोई आपको नही देख रहे थे हम तो वो वो हा हम तो वो आपके बाल अभी भी बोहोत गीले हैं सुखायेंगे नहीं तो सर्दी होजायेगी बस इसीलिए देख रहे थे|"

(I was not looking at you,  I was looking at that....umm..  yes I was watching that your hair is still very wet, you must dry it otherwise you will caught cold, that's why I was watching.)

I opened my eyes and look at him to see him looking at me smiling

"विवाह को एक दिन भी नही हुआ ओर हमारी रानी सा को हमारी इतनी चिंता..अच्छा लगा जान के रानी सा"

(The wedding did not even take a day and our rani Sa is so worried about us. Nice to know rani sa)

he teased again

"आत्मिका नाम  है  हमारा..आत्मिका बुला सकते हैं आप हमे"

(my name is Aathmika. You can call me Aathmika )

I said frustrated.

why because he didn't say your name

"अच्छा तो आपका नाम आत्मिका है पर हमे तो रानी सा ज़्यादा पसंद है"

(oh! so  your name is Aathmika, but I like Rani sa more)

He again teased

"आप हमे ऐसे क्यू छेड़ रहे है"

I cried 

and he laughed .

he stood up and gave me his hand to get up I take it and stand up.

"आत्मिका हमारे इस साधरण से जीवन मे आपका स्वागत है|"

he said genuinely smiling.

"जी बड़ा अच्छा स्वागत करा आपने हमारा हमे छेड़ कर"

I said and he laughed 

"ये तो बस शुरुवत है रानी सा"

I cried again

"अच्छा चलिए अब नही छेड़ रहे आपको अब चले बाहर सब हमारी राह देख रहे होंगे"

(Why are you teasing me like this?)

he said and we moved from our chamber to the dining hall where everyone was present 

and then maa saheb came towards me

"Aathmika its your first rasoi today you have to make something sweet"

and I move to the rasoighar to make gajar ka halwa because apparently that's my speciality in sweet dishes.

I was making it just then a girl showed up.. looking at her it seems she is a royal too as she was wearing royal attire.

she came to me and smiled 

fake smiled

"hey.. I am adhivika daughter of rani sa's best freind and Ahil's very very good friend"

I don't know it was jealousy or what but I was not getting good vibes from her.

"you know rani sa likes kishmish very much just a min let  me add it in her bowl"

and she add it 

I smiled

fake smiled

and I asked the attendees to take the bowl of halwa outside at the dining table ..they took it and move to there I was behind them all the time 

when we reached dining hall I saw everyone sat on the chairs near the dining table . I myself served everyone the bowl. but when it came to giving bowl to maa saheb  I contemplated to give it to her or not

and I didn't 

I took the bowl myself and served her another bowl ....when I gave a bowl to Ahil he smiled lightly and winked at me making me flustered.

I was about to sit next to him when that adhivika sat next to him.

jealousy I see

I was about to sit on a different place when ahil got up and sat at a chair which has one left beside him and I sat next to him

we all were eating silently just then rani sa said

"we are thinking to do the crowning ceremony tomorrow itself do you both have any problem Ahil , Aathmika?"

"no no we dont"

I said immediately.

as we were eating  suddenly Ahil took my bowl of  gajar ka halwa and I looked at him wide eyed

that's mine please let me eat!!!!!

and he smiled looking at me while eating a bite from my bowl.

"क्या बात है रानी सा हलवा तो बड़ा अच्छा बना है किंतु आपने सिर्फ अपने कटोरी मे किशमिश डाली हमारे मे नही? हुह।। अब हम आपका वाला हलवा खायेंगे आप ये हमारा हलवा खा सकते है|"

(What's the matter, rani sa halwa is very good but you just put raisins in only your bowl, not mine? Huh. Now I will eat your halwa, you can eat this halwa of mine)

I looked at him wide eyed and he slide his halwa towards me and starts to eat mine

"सुनिए वो हमारा झूठा है ऐसे खाना आपको शोभा नही देता आप चहते है  तो हम दूसरा ले आते है आपके लिये|"

(Listen, this is my eaten food, such food does not suit you, if you want, then I will bring another one for you.)

"फिर तो और अच्छी बात है आथमिका मान है अबसे आप हमारा आपको अपने सिर के मुकुट पर सजना है हमे और इस तरह आप हमे अपना झूठा खाने से मना करके आपके प्रति जो हमारे अंदर सम्मान है उसे ठेस पोहोचा रही है|"

(Then it is even better, I want to adorn you on the crown of my head and in this way you are hurting the respect I have for you by refusing to eat your eaten food.)

He looked at me intensely .. those green eyes of his showed respect, adoration and love .. just pure love.. I just can't get enough lucky .. this man was mine.. I just don't deserve him.. But I am going to have him

I smiled at him . widely

"राजा सा ऐसी तो कोई बात नही है अच्छा ठीक है अगर आप चाहते है तो खा लीजिये हम नही बोलेंगे कुछ|"

(There is no such thing raja sa , well, okay, if you want, eat it, I will not say anything)

He smiled with his dimple... and I smiled back ..

ईश्वर से यही प्रार्थना है की हम दोनो के मुख पर ये हसी बरकरार रहे महादेव रक्षा करना

(I pray to God that this smile remains on the face of both of us, Mahadev protects)

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